terkadang keliru,
selalu jugak aku terdengar,
"tak guna ada mata kalau tak dapat melihat,
tak guna ada hati kalau tak dapat menilai"

tapi baru-baru ni aku bukan hanya terdengar,
malah melihat dengan mata sendiri,
seseorang yang 
melihat lantas menilai hanya dengan deria pendengaran,
dengar kiri kanan, dengar khabar- khabar teman,
entah betul ke entah bukan,
iltizam sebenar diketepikan, 
"alah tak kesahlah benar tekaan, janji depan mereka, ku tak ditertawakan,
tolak tepi titi perjalanan, asal pipi ku tak dibelacankan.
rasa dia? alaaaaah apa nak ku hiraukan, bukan aku yang kasi makan." 

aku kesal, lidah mungkin tak mampu terdiam lagi.

ternampak ada member post ni pat FB,

 

 eh, bau.
kenapa tiba-tiba eh berbau?
kak, oh kak, ada tak kakak terbau,
cuba kak check sepatu,
mana tahu terpijak sesuatu.
bukan sengaja main acu-acu
atau tuduh, tembak melulu.
tiba-tiba je saya terhidu,
ni baru je ni bila akak lalu.
mungkin kak ter-'itu'
takpe kak, tak payah malu-malu,
perkara gini pun bukannya baru,
walaupun taklah selalu.
betul ke ni kakak tak terbau?

kakak yang berbau.

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sesungguhnya,
aku tak suka orang yang busuk.
kalau rasa diri tu busuk, sila jauhkan diri.
jangan sampai aku meludah.

exact principles apply,
"if you can't stand the heat, get out of the kitchen"
if you were already from the outside in the first place, 
please, help yourself. 
you're totally not wanted here, trust me.
=)


 

 hish, pening kepala.
banyak nah tanda tanya, soalan bertimpa tumpah,
bila tanya Tanya, ergh, tak dilayan lah pula.
belek-belek lembah lama, 
mana tau dapat idea,
naik turun anak tangga, lungsur lecek belakang ular,
balik semula petak pertama,
dah jadi lain cerita.

kenapa banyak tanya eh kau tanya?
dah tema diberi nama,
jom pelan2 cuba semula.

free your mind boy,
time to start afresh and relish this opportunity.
=)

PS:
oh and what about her?
she's been the awesomest.
<3

 and to quote from a friend madcaplove ,
"when about to fall in love, don't be afraid to"

now that totally sums up my start to the new year,
so many have asked, what happened to enjoying being single?
you already seemed real happy,
having the time for yourself, not worrying about anything at all.

i honestly felt like i actually had my peak in most of the things i do at the end of 2009.
finally caught up with my dikir bros,
settled down in this weirdly set-up NS regime/scheduling shit,
and finally proved to mum the worth of all these drumming,
by being featured on tv for Viva Muzik Singapura and Celebrate 2010,
which aren't exactly milestones for me, cos i don't care, as long as i play some samba. haha.

but the best part of it was, sharing it with someone,
and to be touched by all the smallest things she does,
like being really proud, happy and supportive of me in all the things i do,
the way she excitedly updates her mum,
 just the way she's being herself and the way she makes me smile.

2010, please be kind, 
and make this wonderful start to the year last through many more to come.

ps:
i think i blog like a girl,
but if that's what love turns you into,
then heck. i'm loving this.
=)
 

 naga ngorok jangan kacau,
lagi lagi bila dia tengah kenyang,
pelan-pelan kalau nak jalan, 
bisik-bisik kalau nak berbual.

jangan dekat, jangan berani kau cuba.
jangan cakap aku tak pernah bagitau.
hentikan! cepat hentikan!
alamak... 
okay, sekarang kau tanggung sendiri..

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if you play with fire,
i will burn you.
so please,
get out of the kitchen,
it's really getting real hot in here.